Allergy times..not welcome
I am back to Hungary again.
I had left my girls with their father in Sweden for a month.
Together with the warm weather I got my allergy back here, it is killing me, scratchy eyes, nose, ears and even throat (!!!).
While I was in Sweden I enjoyed the fresh air at the countryside in contempt of the rather cold early spring-like weather I experienced this time. And there was no sign of any kind of allergy there! It just disappeared for a couple of days…what a relief it was!
When I got back to Hungary a much warmer climate hit me already at the airport and right after landing I started to feel strange in my lungs, it felt heavy in some ways I can not describe.
Welcome home! ?????? Is this supposed to be home? A place where I feel sick? Or is it home after all? I have unfortunately no answer to that question.
It’s been like this for almost 5 years now.
My life feels like an eternal run between Sweden and Hungary, between my kids, between my memories and my possibilities, between my past and present lives.
I promised to myself that I would figure things out with myself soon. I’d better do before displeasing everyone around me…